Changes

Current location: Bockholmen, Stockholm archipelago, Sweden

As I walked out of the University having packed up my things and said my goodbyes for the summer I felt immense happiness. By the time I arrived to the dock I’m living on this bliss had been replaced by a strange melancholy. It came very unexpectedly and lasted for some hours. I suppose it has to do with all the changes that are about to happen. There are pros and cons having this seemingly nomadic lifestyle of mine. On one hand I get the world as my playground and I experience things that most only see on television, yet on the other hand, every time I go somewhere I leave someone or something behind. I feel like I have a part of my heart and soul has exploded in a million different pieces that are spread all over the world, and no matter where I go or what I do there are pieces missing. I have lived in five different countries the past seven years and in each of them I have gotten to know people that I started caring about. No matter where I go in the world, I feel like I belong; yet nowhere I feel like home because important pieces are missing. I am so excited to see my ‘ActionQuest family’ again, but I can’t help but to think about all the Costa Ricans I have left behind in a world that, now, feels as distant as those pictures in a travel magazine. A while back I learned the importance of acknowledging your feelings, no matter how irrelevant or unfounded they may seem. If you don’t, reality will catch up to you soon enough. So although I may have an epic and adventurous life setup, I too can feel sad for reasons that don’t seem to make sense. I guess I have to take this opportunity to just hang out and load up for what’s about to come in less than a week; two and a half months of having to be excited and pumped about life. That is just a part of the gig when you work with teens and scuba diving, and I think it’s a good thing that I get my grumpiness out of the way before awesomeness takes it place.